The thing about having a partner who is not that financially able. I have to cough out $400 a month to chip in for the car he's going to buy, for the next few years. then there is the ROM party decor, ROM dress. More for my ROM and wedding makeup and hair styling. Dunno how much for for his wedding band. And the holiday I am dying to go to. Unless I can spare enough for both him and me to go for holiday, we will never get to go anywhere...

u know.... it's really important.means a greatGREAT deal to me to travel. It's what i really desire in my life................

Then his partime diploma lessons at a poly is going to start next week............ One week four times. Until 10pm. Bleah. I think I will probably pop into some of his lectures and sit in with him. and pinch him when he dozes off and waste money. The thing about this studying thing frustrates me at times..I have been done with all my studying for a year. Now, he's going..It's like..I still prefer a partner in the same stage of life as me. that is just working, or really pursue high education.

Bleah.. me lamenting again.. teehee..so typical of me..

but u know what....

Thinking of how I never have to pay much in the past with JJ. He pay for all his car expenses by himself. He buys things I like for me. (Not my hubby to be. My hubby to be won't buy me things during shopping.) Anyway despite all these... JJ still sucks.. and I still want to be with my Ah Beng. No life of luxury for me in the near future.. but well..I always know that I got to work hard to get things I want.. No one's gonna provide me with much.

The "union" is gonna decrease my savings rate for sure.................... Bleah.. I don't even take $400 of cabfare..take cab everywhere also less than $400 a month. Car...................I think I like MRTs now. But anyway.. a car is necessary lah..cos he needs to shuttle between and work and school and to look for me etc..

Ok...enough complaints...

There's more than a $1000 2 particular parents owe me. I think they will never be able to return me and just continue oweing me more and more. and more and more. This sum of money can pay for my dress and makeup liao. Change work next year. This year, must earn more money from this biz first. Next year then retire before I start a new job.

Wednesday is my birthday 12th april. his birthday is 15th april. coool ya? think the little ones are planning little surprises for me. :*)

Hieee...

I just started to tell a few friends about the ROM in June. Told a couple of the guys from my JC, and news spread like fire.. Those in USA and Indonesia and Aussie also know. MSN lah.. haha

I have had quite a few arguments with him of late. We never used to quarrel. Sometimes it's due to work stress..Sometimes it's cos I am a little anxious about getting married. premarital jitters.. but at the end of the day...I can't imagine life without him.

It's so weird that we are even talking about babies etc.. ha.. but no way am I going to have babies now.. I need a life..

Work's been tough.. Thinking of winding down the business cos it's way too tiring and taxing on me. Thinking of teaching in a school. I also dunno lah. But ya.. I won't be working this line for long. It's giving me too much wrinkles and troubled skin.. mainly cos i don't have good help. and mainly cos.. children.. haha..they cann really drive u nutz.. some of them lah.

My friend always says that I am the one with the most drama in my life.

I dunno what to blog about anymore.

Very sick now actually.. Since I started working..I have spend one hundred plus on seeing doctor on three occasions. I have lost my voice recently. Cos three primary 5 boys from a reknown school in my area drove me crazy. Seeing them twice a week is really detrimental to my health. I actually kicked out one of the boys because he's always slapping, punching, disturbing etc everyone..shouting at me and all sorts of trouble he has been giving. Asked him to leave, helped him find a new centre that is free that specially caters for problem kids like him. Thank Goodness I know quite a number of social workers. but of cos.. even though the kid's a real brat.. i dote on him at times.. bought him stuff etc.. I really really mean well for all the children but of cos..they won't understand. i guess i have a strong affinity towards many of them too.

dunno what to blog anymore..eat medicine go sleep............niteeee