allo...

u know what...

He really did propose on Valentine's Day.

I didn't give an immediate Yes. I comtemplated for an hour or so. Cos I was frightened.

Despite being a little mentally prepared before the day, I did not give serious thought to whether I want to get engaged this soon. And the ROM thing..

I thought it was just an engagement and then the ROm thingy will be next year or further in future. But man!!!! He wanted our parents to meet up soon and discuss a date. Eh?? Scary...

On one hand, I have been very happy with him. His character, likes and dislikes are almost like mine. Actually, I totally lost myself the year I was with JJ and didn't know that I have the good fortune to receive happiness again, until I know him. Serious.

Though, once he gets angry.. he stays angry for very long. Cos I am the kind that DO NOT PACIFY guys. I just let them be. Like what like how?? I did try to pacify a little.. but it takes more than a little for it to work.. so I heck... and get angry at him for being so unforgiving or petty instead.

I'm still wondering how true horoscopes are. My birthday and his are just 3 days apart. We are both Aries. And we really alike in many ways.

What I Am afraid of is..like I have told u.. I still feel like a girl who's not grown up. Not financially independent enough. Don't have enough money in my bank account for me to feel secure and all.

and also... couples are usually very good to each other right at the beginning..as time goes by... things may deteriorate.. there isn't time for me to know how bad he can get too.. I guess what a friend said was wise.. if a guy still wants to marry you after a few years, this shows he really loves you. not so true for the guy who wants to marry you only after a couple of months.

Oh.. I just realised that today only marks us being together for 3 months.

I met all his family members during the Chinese New Year. Even went along with them to Johore to see their relatives. They can put on fire works outside their houses! REally nice.

My family members don't know him though. Only my sister and mother know.

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Recently.. there's also a irritating guy living near my workplace. He's been coming up to my workplace or I would bump into him eveyr now and then or that he will call me many times a day with incoherent smses.

I already told him I have a boyfriend twice.

My Beng is very unhappy. He wants to go to my workplace area and meet out this guy and talk to him. Goodness...

oh..I haven't talked about what happened during VAlentine's day as in the details.. hahha..nothing much lah..pretty amusing. The proposal was actually carried out in the car in the beach carpark at sentosa in the end.. hahaha cos of some glitches throughout the nite.

HIEEEE.....

Work is as usual.

It has disciplined me a lot.

There's a lot to improve on.

People who are working for me have not been carrying out their responsibilities and really ruining my biz. So.. I'm working out new arrangements.

Anyway..teachers are soooo irritating... Fail one spelling is as if the sky is falling.. crazy. I'm soo sick of all the responsibilities..

Otherwise.. my biz going to decline soon..

As for my Ah Beng... hurhur..

You know what.....

What would you think if a guy start asking you questions like..

- why don't u wear rings?
-what's your ring finger size? (checking out my fingers everytime he sees me)
-what's your ideal age for marriage?
-What do u think of couples who get married after being together for only a little while.
-where do you want to stay after marriage?
etcetc..

then also says things such as,
- I'm going to spend a lot this month.
-I've been working on something to enable us to meet more often.
and a lot others.. can't remember..

Goodness.. What do you think all this means huh??

If he suddenly proposes on Valentine's Day..I will faint.. I've only been together with him for 2 months plus!!!!!! Though it seems like ages already.

Even though things have been great.I'm still worried lah. I'm not ready!!! I don't have enough money..I don't feel secure!!! I want to feel financially secure before marriage

Dunno lah..

I'm going to arrange for him to meet a couple of my frens. he doesn't know pple from my side.. except my mother and sister. He hasn't seen any of my frens before. But I have met almost all his frens and family already..

it's cos.. i'm really embarrassed and uneasy about showing up with different boyfriends every year.. It's the 4th boyfriend already...until we are really going to get engaged or something, then i will introduce him to my frens and family etc.. not tha ti am not proud of him... i'm just not proud of my personal 'REcord"

and yesterday..he came my house to cook. I have been working on a 1000 piece jigsaw for him. was supposed to give him weeks ago.. but just couldn't finish it at all.. everytime he coems.. i will have to find a place to hide it..hide in my sister's or mother's room. I will ask him to wait in the living room first then go hide my jigsaw..yesterday...he didn't wait as usual. he thoguht i was done and came in when i was just about to move the jigsaw away.....damn.....ruined my surprise liao...... :( hahahhahahaa.. the surprise whcih i have kept for weeks.

sianzz..time to sleep soon again..