Tuesday morning -- Friday evening was sheer hell. Work was real demanding. It's not just a matter of dealing with kids who exhibit the most unruly behaviour. There are still many other daunting challenges. OF cos.. at the end of the day.. I can still see their strengths and the cuter facet and love them for those qualities.

IT's gonna be hellish all the way till end of May. God be with me..

Fortunately.. besides God, there's also my beng. haha..

By Friday evening, I was totally drained and getting dizzy spells when I walk. I still went out to meet him after work. We met about 10plus.. Bumped into a couple of his friends who noted that I looked very different, very exhausted. Anyway.. it's like the moment he came, I felt like I found my sanctuary and rest. We spent the weekend together.

Being with him can be quite therapeutic. Now, I'm ready for tomorrow's challenges again. I'm really trying to strike a balance between work and rest. A more ideal situation would be that I can find more joy at work, that I can start seeing certain stress more positively..

My first bf told me on msn that he feels like turning bad. Going wild. He wants to go flirt around with girls irresponsibly. ......????!!!!! Such a sweet boy who was a pious Christian loved by all his friends. Now he's telling me this. Sigh..Anyway..I'm thinking of a future possibility that I can go with my current guy to Hongkong and meet up with my first bf and his current gf there. Will ask him if he minds. DEspite going there a few times and staying there for quite long before,... it's a place that I cannot get enough of. Since Beng also never go Hongkong before, it might be a good short holiday destination.

Anyway.................... yesterday night.. I had already dozed off in the car. When I woke up, I realised he's brought me to that resevoir place near Yishun again. He insisted that I should try driving at least once in my lifetime cos I refused to learn. And then. most reluctantly and a little sleepily, I swopped seats. I practised controlling the accelerator for a while. Then the car moved liao..with me at the driver's seat. Man... I don't have a license ya? Of cos, I only did the accelerator thingy and the steering wheel, he manoveured(what's the spelling?) the rest. We travelled or a stretch and stopped. I refused a second time. haha.. I don't want to get into trouble. Still.. thinking back.. I sorta drove. I was involved in getting the car to move. hurhur..

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And.. I should really start replying my smses from now on. Cos I don't. I don't like to sms. I only like to receive and read. IT affected my friendships and now affecting my relationship too. So ya.. time to change.. sianzz.. haha