RESPONSIBILITIES screaming at me..

I'm totally stressed out. I knew it's coming and it's here. The kids are a terror. I blame myself for my inexperience in handling them.

New place. New people.

4 more new people tmr.

But..I just went to the bank with some cheques and a stack of notes. Carrying so much cash in my bag all day. All hard earned money. REally hard earned. I try very hard to give them their money's worth. Take their little money, work myself crazy. All of us aren't taking the workload and stress well. Cos, we all still try to maintain our social life. It's hard to have both an active social life and great work achievements. They don't quite go together. Not for my case.

My character of not liking to charge much is still quite there. So, sometimes, I leave others to do the fees negotiation. Wait. Let me continue to build up the reputation and network first. Then... I will up the price levels further.

It's just kids, u might think. It's more than that.

I wish that someone cares more. He needs to show me more concern, other than a simple sms of "stress issit? take care" Bleah. Sounds like a message from acquaintance.

I realised that on days I don't meet him, he instantly becomes a stranger to me. Really.. Don't know why. We didn't meet today. He's like a stranger to me already. I'm so tired with work I don't care about him anymore.

I'm escaping...

I actually have tons of work awaiting me. But I have been doing everything except those work. Not marking papers lah. Other stuff..

When this little business stabilises.. I will do another side biz.... God Blesss... I don't want to be stuck in a small place with children driving me mad.