I reached work at 7.30am this morning. Ended work at 8pm. Home for a while, and back to work place again later. I'm gonna sleep over...to ENSURE that I won't be LATE for work tomorrow... **weepz***

I'm willowing in self pity again. We had a little argument lah. He objected to me staying over at the centre tonight. But I had to make sure that I won't be late for work tmr or suffer the dire consequences. Why can't he freakign understand?? I can't take any chances. And so.. he said he shall not care anymore and all the bullshit. Bleah..What the hell.

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It's not good when everyone tells us how good our relationship is, or we tell each other how good each other is. IT's really not healthy at all. Totally unhealthy..I reiterate. Bleah.. What the hell.

His friends think quite well of me. They told him stuff like below..

* Having her as a girlfriend is better than winning top prize for lottery.
** She's really very very good. You (Him) must cherish her and be very nice to her. Cannot mistreat her. << that particular guyfriend repeated this to him umpteen times. I got free promotion. Not bad.
***yadayada..

He said he knows, don't need his friends to tell him.

I'm okay with these comments lah. It was pretty alarming to receive such positive comments. Serious. Not trying to be fake or humble. I think..I'm just a normal girl.

I just try. If the boyfriend is good to me.. of cos I will try my best to be good in return.

From now on.. I don't want to hear such stuff again. I shall tell him not to feedback such comments to me again.

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When work is hard.. and my body and mind is tired.. my only consolation has to fail me too. I have decided to be childish and not try to pacify or appease him at all this time. WHO ASK HIM TO BE SO UNREASONABLE AND not understanding. All the things he said were really unreasonable. And all communicated thru SMSes. What the hell..

What the hellwhat the hellwhat the hellwhat the hellwhat the hell.. what the hell what the hell what the hellwhat the hell what the hell what the hell what the hell what the hell...what the hellwhat the hell...............what the hellwhat the hellwhat the hellwhat the hellwhat the hellwhat the hell..

Bleah.. Things get better please............. IT's 10pm. Shower and go back to work and work and sob and sleep in that place alone in jitters and bitterness.