I'm sick, like really quite sick for quite a number of days.

This morning, I went to work with only one and half hour of sleep and my body was burning at over 40degrees celsius. After the medicine.. it's subsiding.

Point is. the Ah Beng wasn't that concerned loh. And actually, it was kind of like his fault that I am sick.

I realised... that I am a very expressive person. I am very expressive with regards to my feelings towards others. Often making the other party feel good, admired and loved, I became the inferior counterpart. How to say.... I should just act like I don't quite care and don't quite like him. Which isn't true.. cos the attraction is actually increasing!!! DAmmit, why do I fall for bad guys. He's just the bad guy kind loh............................... Though he's cutting down on drunk driving and the excessive use of vulgarities. He's still pretty selfish liao lah.

And honestly, the few times we went pubbing with his friends...I'm actually quite sick of the way he's so close to all the girls. and all the girls asking him out etc.. I never say anything lah. cos after all, I don't regard him as my boyfriend. I don't feel like I am his either. We are just going out, trying to know each other more.

Wah.. so unhappy................................. bleah. irritating. I was supposed to meet my old friends for gathering..but I am too sick and tired to go out. but too bored and lonely at home. What to do huh????? Slap me.