Woke up at 6am.. For what??? Just a habit. Cannot get back to sleep..

Went to the Zoo..

Enjoyed looking at the monkeys behaviour.. the cute girraffes the handsome miniature horses..

Took few photos cos I have been looking bad.. I really should grow my hair long. This shoulder length hair doesn't suit me at all.. Look like an auntie..

STill very hurt.. Did more things to hurt myself today.

AFter my friend left to meet his girl, I called that idiot. He was terrible. Then I went to his house and waited for him to collect the one last thing I can take from him -- our photo album. It was horrid again.. God..I am slipping into depression.. I really hate him for the emotional torture. I really hate him. I asked him never to answer my phone calls again. NEver to reply my smses again. Let me get out of his life totally... That should be the last time I met him.

I am really unhappy. I am really unhappy.

Giddy.. Choked...

Btw.. I hate the name Chris. GEt away all you Crises..whatever.

Very painful.. Heart aching a lot. I don't know how.. I don't know what to do.. Don't know how to get well .. It's already been more than a week.. I guess the main reason is that I feel no more hope.... No more hope that I will ever get the love I want. NEver... How to??? Meeting all sorts of bad guys.. and the good guys don't like me..

Somebody save me.. Dont' ask me to save myself.. I am trying already.. Need help.. BAD,...