Why are most of friends busy with school now?

Why are those working lot cancelling meet ups with me at the very last minute so so often now?

Why are break ups so hard?

Fuck him. WAste my time and youth and emotions and life and everything. I wish to tell him that I have long been very disappointed with him (in the very first week together.) and that I have never loved him much. I tried very hard to be nice to him and looked as if I loved him only because he happened to be my boyfriend and I hate break ups and change of boyfriends.. and I just want my relationship to work out and not die.....Selfish brat.

I can go on and on about what an idiot he has been during the relationship. How I slept on the floor on the very thin mattress and let him have the bed sometimes. How I stayed up to help him type assignments even though I was sleepy. nevermind.. it's totally no good to list this sort of stuff.

I need some hope.