A typical day goes like this....

Wake up at 6am.. rush to take bus.

Reach work at 7am.

Tend to naughty children.

More children comes at 12noon....

Help comes at 1pm or later...

Absolute havoc till 7pm...

On top of this.. I still have lots other work to do..

And someone hates me talking about work. Someone isn't interested at all. Someone doesn't care if though he had said few times that he will try his best to help me with my work. And someone is forever so dishonest and keeping so many things from me. I wish that someone would change.. Though it's easier for me to change myself than to change him.

I don't have energy anymore.. I am getting 6 or less hours of sleep everyday. Someone goes out with his friends when he could be nice to come help me a little.

I'm tired to trying to please that someone in many ways.

Why do I spend so much money on that someone too? Those are my HARD EARNED money.. I mean. real hard.. earning money is so hard for me..

ACtually, I hate it that I have been such a grouch in the recent years. I wish I am someone more lovable so that that someone would treat me better.. would want to spend more time with me.

Fuck..I need to go sleep..blogging is not helping.. it makes me feel bad that I am showing to my blogger frens what a grouch I am ..

btw.. something not very important but.. well.. the guy that guy the one that I didn't get together with one year ago. He's sorta contacting me thru sms now and asking me out.. he said stuff like he missed me over msn. and couldn't stop thinking about for the past one year. asked me out etc.. said that it was hard to get over me and so he tried real hard to avoid me for one year. So, why look for me all of a sudden, I wonder? Frankly speaking..I won't want to believe that i really mean that much to him for the past one year. Very hard to believe. Maybe for a week or so, but one year is quite impossible. And...I won't consider him. I just don't like him. He's not suitable for me.

Then there's my very first bf.. Gosh.. he doesn't stay in any part of Singapore loh..Even if I spare $20 for a cab trip, I won't be able to reach him. He was telling me over msn how valuable our relationship was then. That was love to its truest form...To bad, I ruined it in the end.... I'm not thinking about getting back with him lah.. It's impossible.

I am just sulking and whining as you can see..I feel so awful...I so dis like myself for not being a cheerful girl.