I'm still sad lah.
I still hate him lah.
I know I know.. Hating him only burdens me..Holding on to the past also burdens me.. It will just make my life worse..and I shouldn't let him worsen my life than it already is right? I shouldn't go around with swollen and puffy eyes just because of him right? Shouldn't go around looking like shit and sobbing every now and then...
should get alife and live even better than before and blahblahblah right?
i don't feel like it you know.. Part of me still wants to dwell in this shit. Dwell in self empathy.
I know it's good that it ended..cos it has been a long painful year of relationship. Still... I'm terribly sad that it has to end. Why can't we just try harder and make it work? Whateverwhatever...
Less crying today at least. Such a crybaby I am.. The one in Hongkong called me baby yesterday. It's been a long long time since he called me this. but then he's in hongkong leh. he's attached too. forget it.
posted by Satin @ 10:44 pm
1 Comments:
no one expects u to come out of it with no feelings whatsoever. It IS o.k to be depressed about it first, it's part of the process. How long u wanna take? it's all up to u. But dun dwell on it forever o.k? You health will suffer one. *pats satin on the head*
u mentioned people loving you without loving yourself. U are rite, it can happen. But rite now, dun mind me saying this, you have pretty low esteem because of what has happened. Just try to be nicer to yourself, build it up again to be a more vivacious, fun loving and beautiful satin! :o)
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