I met up with him for lunch earlier today and it was real bad. He told me all sorts of stuff that really hurt me.. Hope his car gets scratches tomorrow. What the fuck is wrong with him for chasing me trying to make me believe that he loves me a lot at the start and that he will change to someone suitable for me? He told me that I was just a companion that he tried hard to love more but couldn't.

Can't describe how i felt with my bad english. Chest felt stuffy. Felt giddy and all.. Heart wrenched.. Bah. Hope his car gets bumped into tomorrow, when he is driving another girl.

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I have been corresponding with a stranger through email. He didn't tell me his age..From the looks of his friendster photos, I'm thinking that he's probably 35 years old or more. He asked me out on the coming public holidays.. I'm hesitant now..

He asked me why I have been removing photos from my friendster, down to only one now. He said that I used to have quite a few. I mean this is real strange you know. Cos the last time I have a few photos up on friendster is months ago. How he knows??


Dunno lah..Been attracting nobody but uncles.. Serious.. An uncle kept smiling and looking at me on the mrt yesterday. So pissed. It must be cos of my tired and haggard look that they mistake me for a young looking auntie. Whatever nonsense..

These days..I go around looking tired, pale and my eyes puffy and red. Too much crying. Too little sleep.