I lost my antibiotics!!!!!!!!! I still cannot figure out how I lost them... I cannot take MC leh. Have to crawl to the clinic early in the morning to get heavier doses soon.. Costs taxi money, medicine money, consultation fees, my morning sleep....bah. quit complaining.. that funny clinic I go to is not that normal doctor's clinic.. I hafta queue for hours to see the doc who like to do funny uncomfortable tests on me. hate to go there.

I have been trying to keep myself sane this few days. I needta make life better for myself. I tell myself that I need to stop being stupid and worsen things all the time.

Today, I received a surprise friendster message from a guy I have lost touch with for one year. JJ knew but he never cared about any guys who might have expressed 'admiration' for me before. I guess it's cos these guys often fall into the 'bad catch' category..and he knows all of them have qualities inferior to him. A guy doesn't need to be rich with high education or good looks to make me happy.

Anyway, this was the guy whom I didn't choose last year. I chose JJ over this guy cos I needed someone I feel is smarter or at least on par with me. This guy has also done some stuff that put me off.. e.g. peeping with friends at couples who are making out at dark places..Yuck. But he was truly good to me then.

In his lengthy message, he left his new handphone number and said that he makes a very good listening ear and that I can call him to confide my problems.. I don't think I will lah..

Trying to make adjustments to my life. Trying to find happiness for myself loh...................... Thanks people...