I doubt I will ever have a female best friend again. I doubt I will have any best friends again ever again ever ever again ever again...
I have lost two really good ones after college.
It's bad. I am the kind that other girls do not know how to be friends with. Many find me weird and quiet and antisocial with no life who only likes to study. Think they are mad to think that I am studious. Hardly any girls would try to know me better.
I realise I don't know how to get along with girls. The more I try to keep the friendship, the faster it slips away. I don't do anything now.
I am very passive when it comes to friendship with girls. They gotta let me know that I am welcomed into their lives. They gotta let me know that they are interested in being more than acquaintance with me. It's only there and then, I will open up to them and be able to get along with them more naturally. I can only relax and truly be myself with my old girlfriends. There isn't any female friend that is close to my heart now.
Not eloquent with my thoughts here....................I want best friends. I want good friends. Send me some soon? Difficult to get them at this age... Even more difficult since I am waiting for them to come to me, instead of actively seeking for them.
posted by Satin @ 11:25 pm
3 Comments:
hmmm.. with friendships, i guess it takes time to nurture, can't really rush things rite? I kinda can understand how you feel in a sense that i find myself not really able to integrate myself with chinese girl groups and eventually find that i have more malay girl frens than chinese girls despite being chinese myself. I dunno, maybe it's the lack of common ground? or just plain cannot understand each other? Anyway... don't give up! Friends tend to float in when you least expect it!
ya.. malays can be real nice frens..they are mostly pleasant and less malicious.. that's just the general impression i have of them
huiqin, hi there.. went to ur blog. can't access it. maybe it's better to have a group of good girlfrens rather than one best female fren. and u r so right that female jealousy is the reason why a lot of girls can't be that good frens with each other..
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