Today, I was at the vcd shop choosing a vcd to rent. Wanted to watch Jude Law's film.
JJ told me that Jude Law had an affair with his child's nanny.
You can be sure that I will boycott all Jude Law's films from now on. Scumbag.
I so hate men who engage in affairs and I think 90% of the men in this world living right now, have been unfaithful or will be unfaithful to their partners in their lifetime.
I hate men. But I can't quite do without men. Not men. I just need one man to love me truly. So difficult. I want to get married. But I think I will be so unlucky to have a husband who sleeps around with his best female friends of colleagues or some shitty girls, after I bear children and turn old and then, I would have to get a divorce and fight for my child's custody with him.
I so think that JJ will engage in affairs. He's displaying so many likely signs. Men like variety. When they have you, they will desire the others. Ok lah. MOST men. Not all men. But I bet I will be the unfortunate lot to meet with those scumbags.
Porn is bad. It causes men to have unrealistic expectations of women. FUCK!!!!!! I so hate the world I am living in now. I'm not saying that JJ will engage in affairs just because he views porn. This is another point.
I'm ANGRY!!!! Everytime I heard about idiots having affairs, I will be very disturbed and sink into depression thinking that it will happen to me too.
JJ's mother been having affair with a FRIEND. So much for friends. Guys would declare that there exists platonic friendships. Yea, very hard to come by. Back to the affair. Their families know each other and the man of the other family started to have an affair with JJ's mother. It's been on for years. Tell me, how to respect her? I hate affairs like anything. Sorry, I can't repect her. And I am giving that disgusting man face by calling him Uncle. Cheats on his wife for so many years. Ought to be shot.
But I guess in a way it's actually good for me that JJ's mother has this disgusting man for company. Else, she will stick to JJ even more. Yea.. she leeches to JJ. Thank God she's got that man. Sigh..Whatever.. I am mean. YEa. Now you know. What the hell. I just want happiness. Just want a man who really loves me. Who will protect me and not hurt me.
You know how TV dramas always show how a girl is crossing the road not knowing a vehicle is about to knock her down. A man who loves the girl dearly would go "Look out for the car!" Run to push the girl away and get knocked down by the car.
I think if I were the girl. JJ would just stand rooted by the roadside and shout, "Look out for the car!"Then after I get knocked down by the car, he would weep and call the ambulance.
Right. Let's go to a less dramatic scenario..
You know how some men would swear by not hurting the girls ever and giving her only happiness. Some men would firmly believe in not making their girls cry. You know, most men are not like this.
Bah.. Just my luck to have met JJ.
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I accidentally deleted the rest of my entry. I guess I shall just end with that JJ is trying to change, to give me what I want. Don't think I am expecting too much. CAre for me when I am sick. BEcause he doesn't. Be there for me when I have big problems, because he doesn't. Be honest. Accept me for who I am. I doubt he can change much though.
Yay!!! How nice... Another failed relationship.
posted by Satin @ 1:36 am
8 Comments:
Woah, since you're saying he's trying to change, why say it's a failed relationship?
And I must say this entry made me rather wide-eyed! Where's JJ's father?
i once had a relationship like urs too...and i do believe family plays a big role in upbringing n in such situations the son will usually follow suit the mum...or he will do the exactly opposite to refrain his loved ones from experiencing wad he did before...tis is the only 2 options..for my case, i faced the former...so yeah...just be on ur toes...
Girl, you know what I wrote over at the OD. So you know what happened between my man and I recently.
Up until it happened, I had 100% trust in him. After that, I understood that nothing is guaranteed in this world. People change, feelings change, circumstances change.
Changes frighten me. But in the end I realised that it is inevitable. It's like gravity. We'd just have to learn to live with it.
So what I'm saying is, we can't always live fearing the unknowable future. If we do that, we'd end up missing all the good bits in life.
At the risk of sounding horribly cliched,
C'est la vi; carpe diem.
(That's life; seize the day.)
hang in there, Satin! Tomorrow will be a better day.
Couldn't put it better myself, puffer.
Just go on with life, making the most of what you have. Sounds like he's making more effort to make things right now, which is fantastic! Congrats!
As puffer said, get out there and live! Life is only as good as you let it be, right? Focus more on enjoying it, and less on worrying about things. :D
jayaxe>>> i dun see how things can ever be as good as i want them to be, that's why..failed..
JJ's father had an affair with another woman long ago and dumped JJ's mom. Non-stop affairs. Disgusting World. Disgusting People.
And it's a little like what Blush said about family influence. The child follows what the parents do or he/she tries very hard not to let it happen.
Blush>> Hey, think you brought up a real good point. I will blog about this family influence thing one day.
Puffer Fish)))*Yup.. Your story was another one of those that made me very cynical of relationships.
We can't live our lives always fearing of the unknown future, else we will miss the good bits of life. Yea.. Throw in Tempest "My happiness is in my control." I really need to write all these down and repeat to myself everyday.
Often I choose to think a lot about whether my relationship is going to work out. Cos I don't want to wait till it's too late to realise that I should have left this man long ago. Better to worry and think carefully now then regret years later.
I have a problem of focusing too much on my problems. Thanks girl..
Tempest )) Hanging.. Won't let go. Letting go is sure failure. I believe in trying..
Dinghy ))) how to get out there and live life? :) haha.. sigh.. maybe going pubbing with fren this wednesday counts, that is if it's not cancelled again.
really depends on you, i guess. what puts a smile on your face? what else in life haven't you done? pick up a new sport that you've always thought would be fun, find some sorta new hobby and make new friends while you're at it, travel a lil for the occasional dinner with old friends, etc.
break the usual routine, yknow? mix things up a little.
I know what you're doing of course. I do that a lot too :) What woman doesn't obsess over relationships?
Just remember to live as well. I agree with dinghy here. Just by doing something DIFFERENT, you're living life more daringly and passionately. You'd feel better about yourself.
(Why do you think I enrolled for motorbike license? :P I just decided that I won't fear dying in a fatal accident anymore. I wanted to ride a bike since I was a kid and I'm not going to go to my grave regretting that I never dared to try it. That, and the other reason I gave at my blog).
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