Had a chat over a night coffee with a guyfren from college.
It was weird how his gaze fell upon my top every now and then throughout the conversation.
I assume he's looking at my *ahem*. Wasn't scantily clad mah. Was wearing long jeans, black tank top and a JACKET over. Perhaps it's cos my tank top from GG>>5 got enlarged after a few wash and so became a little low cut.
It's weird when ur fren actually looked at you that way. It's funny. In mind was, "Eh, I am so flat, what's there to see? Why does he still see? Or perhaps, he's just wondering why I am so flat chested.
It's even weirder when my friends (guys and girls) sometimes just speak their mind about what they have 'observed'. I will be wondering when, when I was not paying attention that they size me up.
A guyfren said once, "Don't you dare complain again, there are so many girls worse off." Another girlfren said, "Help me buy bra when you go Bangkok, same size as you." <<--- Makes me wonder, so she has noticed that I am the same size as her.
That's a lousy argument I have just made. Can't quite articulate my thoughts well. Bleah.
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I wanted to comment about the famous/notorious girl who flashed her body to the World. More of the World would be viewing her, and I reckon more photos of her would be up.
Though I get jealous at times, I am not of her. That sort of body is actually deemed as hot? Odd taste you people have. I'm doing exactly what she doesn't like, minding her business, and not minding my own. But what the hell. I don't like what she does too. She aims and LOVES tainting the World which I happen to live in too. So irritating.
I don't like it that one of her ambitions in life is to revolutionize the way Singapore or ( maybe as much of the World as possible) is now, the part when we are still so "CONSERVATIVE" and not be opened about issues of sexuality. (Why not revoluntionize about how we should not work so hard for money to live our lives over here? This is a million times more meaningful and beneficial to the society.) What does she want to see? Everyone openly discussing about our sex encounters and posting nude photos of AESTHETIC appeal online for all our friends, relatives and strangers to see? Is this what all of us want? When that happens, we might gain from the "RELIEF" and "ENJOYMENT" or "LIBERATION" of talking openly about the "TABOO" topics. But, we will have to pay the price for these "benefits". Price being that a lot of people will be hurt in the process. PRice being.. Whatever lah.. because I know that...
....I can argue till the cows come home and change nothing about this phenomena. The Internet is here to stay and furiously facilitating the proliferation of porn, promiscuity and crazy ideas. Some people just think that they are AHEAD in this society and their ideal society is one which is very OPEN about sex and nudity. OPEN is sometimes an euphemism. Issit OPEN or issit LOOSE? Are we conservative, or are we just trying to preserve a healthy society. Bitch, I hope she vanishes from the world soon.
Ya I am MEAN.. I told you before that I am a MEAN person. But I think she's worse. She's a hazard. She has the freedom of speech and freedom of this and that, along with many other people who has the same mindset for life as her. I can say whatever I want too.
Sometimes, I just hate reading blogs. They make me feel disturbed and unhappy and I would stop visiting the particular blogs again. I wish I live in the era where this bullshit business doesn't exist. Told ya I like to read about Mr Brown at times. He gives me hope that the kind of life and happiness I want still exist. Hope it's within my reach.
From what I wrote, I know you all would think I am just overreacting and being way too prim and proper and conservative or whatever.. I maintain that I am not and there's no point in arguing and getting all worked up in front of my computer in the middle of the night, when I have a lot better things to do. I've personally witnessed so much of the dark side of our present society and I shudder to think it's gonna get worse. By the way, it's not just against her, it's against a whole lot of pple similar to her. And I find it all right for her to describe all her life stories with explicit details on her sexual encounters. I just don't like her more recent entries on her intentions.
Need a bath to simmer down.
Do tag, tell me what you think, even if you don't agree with me.
posted by Satin @ 1:13 am
4 Comments:
wow! I can tell this must have disturbed you a lot. This is one of the most thought-provoking entries you've written.
I sort of agree with you. Sometimes when I blog surf I find really wierd ppl. People who flaunt their sexuality. Teens selling their body, or sleeping around. People who talk trash or poison-pen governments, or are so bitter they criticise everything.
Then there are the normal people. People who go to work, go out have a beer at night, meet friends, think about love, family, etc etc.
Sometimes I just want the wierd people to go away and leave us normal people to live our lives. Stop trying to shock our senses by overturning our world.
But I guess to these ppl, what they do is normal, its people like us who are not.
Best advice is, don't read them. :-)
That's wat blogs are for...personal, honest, individual....but definitely not media-fodder...
the papers stepped over the line, so consumer-whore. :P
tempest blue -*
ya. there are certain blogs that disturb me before this one too. I stopped reading them.
I don't like to know of pple cheating on their partners, expats sleeping with locals even though they are married or attached back in their country..Watch the show "Closer" starring Julia Roberts, Jude Law(not sure of his name) etc.. It articulates what is prevalent in the society very well..I just don't like everyone to sleep around and think it's no big deal. I don't like non-porn-actresses to put up all their "artistic photos" for all the guys to see. It's all becos I am afraid that all these will rob me of my happiness. What if more n more guys start thinking that sex is nothing and with all the girls available, they just grab one and start screwing (pardon my language) haha.. most importantly, why if my partner gets involved with all these girls.. there will be no happiness to speak of..
here i go rambling rambling... haven't eaten, cannot think.
I just like to learn about Happy Couples, Healthy Guys, Couples who got married for many many years and still hold hands when they go out, never cheating on their partners, never go fantasize about other girls.. LEss broken families please....
ah 9,
hi there..
anyway, initially, i thought the press was being inconsiderate. They didn't consider how it will affect SPG's image badly and that many will think of her badly. She might attract some horny guys though. Anywayz, then, you can read her writing how she loves the attention. So, don't need to worry for her.
Ya..she can write what she wants.. Thing is, a blog writer these days, can be very INFLUENTIAL. She really can make a HUGE, but NEGATIVE impact in our lovely Singapore. With the amount of media and bloggers' attention given to her now (increasing too), what she says and does can change My World. Think how influential Xiaxue is. She can go saying how nice a pair of shoes look, and many girls would start buying that type of shoes. Thank God, she's a kind and sensible girl.
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