Today, I finally pluck up the courage to say that I want to quit. Funny eh? But well, she's taught me so much and treated me well, I feel bad for leaving. By "she" I am referring to my supervisor. I haven't told the more important person yet. Wait till I get my resignation letter typed. Gosh, can u imagine that I actually have to type a resignation letter? What an event. haha.. First resignation letter in my life, and hopefully the last.

She asked why. I said, because the pay is too low and I don't have the capability to achieve high pay in this company. --- So tactful and diplomatic of me. :)

She said, "But u haven't even put in much effort and u r still in the 2nd month of probation period, how do you know that U can't, when u haven't tried hard?"

I won't tell the truth. Not good. Well, the truth is that it's gonna take a lot of effort and a lot of sacrifices and almost everyday of my life from the time I wake up till I sleep would be dedicated to work. Not kidding. And the return on investment ROI is just not attractive enough.

She added that I am being myopic by switching to another job just because it pays a few hundred more at the start. EVeryday go office and work all your life -- won't amount to anything great. Who says working in offices won't lead to a lot of money rolling in?

Lazy to type on.

Now now.. draft resignation letters. Should I still continue sending in my reports everyday? I cannot really be bothered to sell more now actually. I am definitely not going to eat my sales target this month and they are definitely going to deduct $200 for not hitting my target. Whether I sell $19,000 or $10,000, I still don't get the pathetic $200. So forget it. Will help them do other operational work instead. Once you don't hit $20K, $200 is automatically deducted. Okay, I am getting angrier and angrier typing this. TAke me for cheap labour. Since I am leaving, still think so much for what. I need to refocus. I did learn a lot of useful things through this job. BREATHE.

Now, will just give them a little time to look for new pple.

Getting excited about my new plan. It's gonna be tough. Tougher than my existing job. But welll, at least nobody "on top"'s gonna give me hell for every little mistake I make, cos this time round, I am the Boss, second to my customers though. :) My customers are my bosses. They pay me my monthly income. Nope, I don't want to let too many pple know what I am going to do. So often, pple like to scorn and criticise everyone else's dreams and plans.

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I been eating a lot a lot alot alot... All the fats go to my butt and thighs. :(