I have so many many things I want to blog about, but just don't have the chance to do it.

I just cried.. again.. over the phone. Bcos JJ likes to limit the amount of time he meets me each week. I have been trying to put up with this arrangement, but yea.. it's just not what I want in a relationship. I want my relationship to be intense and hope to be really close to my bf in our everyday lives. But he's the sort that is fine with just meeting his girl once or twice a week. Only meeting once or twice a week can kill me. Anyway, I have stopped sobbing. Cos he asked me to take a cab over to his place now. It's 12.40am now. I dunno whehter I want to be this silly. Since by the time I reached there in an exorbitant cab ride, it would be near bedtime. I would be going work about 12noon next day too..

Actually, a lot of stuff happened today. And I wished to say that I kinda enjoy the retail environment at times, remembering why I had wanted to take up this job right at the beginning. And I am actually generally happy. :)

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Wanted to blog about loads of stuff leh.. sigh.no time no time. tsk

Summarise.

Secret to share. I was so boliao a couple of nights ago and just replied to an icq message. Those random icq messages we often get, you know what I mean. And then I got lazy to type and we talked on the phone. And then, he apparently fell in love with my voice or something kept wanting to meet up. He's going Austrialia soon for work and he wanted to bring me along. Well, yes, he could be just lying about the whole thing, but being the smart lie-detector I am, I think it's true. That night I was just mumbling cos I was already lying on bed ready to sleep througout the conversation. Next day, when I am 'sober', I started receiving messages from him. Those cheesy ones about how he missed me wanted to see me blahblah.. Refused to divulge where I am working. He wanted to go google out my blog!!! Nutz. Anyway, I told him that I don't want to keep in contact at all. He went, "Please, please, I just want to be pure friends, no evil intentions, no intentions of breaking u n ur bf up..blahblah" Being the nasty girl I am, I firmly expressed that I don't want contact at all and stopped replying him. He's quite cooperative. :) Good. So far so good. I don't switch on my icq either.

Yesyes.. It was really mad of me to even reply him and talk to him on the phone. Ya. I won't do it again. I would be more sane from now on. Btw... no eligible suitors for me for a very long time. Only attract ..hmm... guys that I would never like.

My colleague asked me if I would ever marry a man who is very ugly and short. I said that I don't like anyone shorter, or even about the same height as me. I don't like guys who are younger than me too. But, I think I will still love such a guy, if he has other special qualities -- very intelligent, capable and accomplished. He's got to possess traits that I can look up to and respect him for.

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Everyone who said that they would make up for my birthdays have not fulfilled their promises. Bleah.. I don't want to trust anyone with this anymore. Why say they would when they won't to double my disappointment. In some ways, I am still childish, I know.

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I think I want to save up on the 15bucks of cab fare. Shall not travel down to JJ's place. Don't want to see his mother tmr either.