happy stuff, unhappy stuff

Coincidentally, my cousin and my mother's friend are moving house. People who move house have a lot of rubbish they want to discard and give away. Hiakz..Lucky me.

Lucky me got the following;

1) 2 FREE aircons
2) 1 FREE washing machine
3) 1 FREE fridge
4) lotsa pretty and FREE crockeries and cutleries

YAY!

More to come. :) Must make sure the freebies don't clash with the whole "theme" of the place.

Not childcare center lah.

Nothing glamourous. In fact, it's something that most of us are skeptical about. To all my graduate and undergraduate friends, this is a total stupid idea and they wonder why Satin is getting all weird after University studies, pulling all sorts of stunts --first salesgirl then some funny student care center she's going to run. I can't be bothered to clarify that I wasn't a salesgirl. I was a retail management trainee and this company only hire all the graduates to do the job. Teehee..I sound like a total grouch to be so easily offended by people's criticisms of my decision. Whatever lah, at the end of the day, as long as I make money and fulfill my dreams, glamour and "face" wouldn't matter that much anymore.

When it's renovated, I will take pics of it and post it here. My entries have been so wordy.

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I chatted with my first bf on icq some days back. He's not a local. He's not in Singapore. He was confiding in me about his current career. And I told him what I have been doing. He said something that I did not realise myself. He said, "You are one big step nearer to 2 of what you always wanted to do." That is, Invest and Business.

When my first bf and I were in JC, we always talk about investing, business and travelling the world.

Sometime ago, I invested a sum of my CPF money into balanced funds. Reason why I have the money even though I have only worked 2 months, is because of my mother's regular contribution to my CPF fund since I was young. This is one small step, or you can say one big step. It is quite difficult to take the first step. I have a trusted financial adviser too - a friend with definite intelligence and integrity and love towards her friends. So, here's investing.

Then it's the student care center thing lah. It was my mother's idea. Not mine. I am more interested in the retail and wholesale business. I sorta complained of the low margins and potential for substantial profits. She surprised me when she said that I cannot be so pessimistic. She said that I need to run this well and She believe that I am capable to make it profitable and open up more branches in future. WAh seh! Mother say she believe that I am capable leh. hahaha..I never believed in myself.

A little sidetrack, my mother is the only one who thinks I am slim and attractive. :)

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Recently, I am feeling happiness from deep within that I haven't tasted for a very long time. JJ is one reason too. He's been rather good tempered, supportive and loving these days. I never thought I could be really happy again.

Despite a few unhappy instances, I'm still fine. I recently discovered a lie my 2nd bf (previous bf) told me. He was supposed to help me return a library book months ago (last year June), before I even knew JJ. But, I kept receiving reminders from the library that I haven't returned the book. I called him and asked several times about the book, he said he's already returned. A couple of days ago at the library, I checked the amount I owed the library -- $28. Wonderful! That book cost me overdue charges of $28. The librarian said that the book was only returned recently.

Don't need to give that scumbag any benefit of the doubt. He's been telling irresponsible and ridiculous lies since I first knew him. It's my life's greatest misfortune to ever cross paths with this loser, NUS dropout cum compulsive liar who loves blowing his own horn. You will never understand my agony until you personally meet such a compulsive liar. Total waste of my time, leaving SUPER UGLY FOOTPRINTS in my life. Pui! Somebody please put him to jail for inflicting emotional torture on a sweet nice girl like me. I tell you, he will never change. He lies to the entire world. He's got identity crisis. I gave him too many chances. He likes people to believe that he's an A student, very rich and drives. But, he's an NUS dropout, normal income family and owns no car. When I first know him, for many times, we walked along the carpark to his house, he would say,"I wonder where's my car, I think my uncle must have borrowed it again." Truth is, he has no car. :) But he can stage such an act in front of me. The issue is not that I mind whether he's rich. None of my bfs are rich and I don't like guys who are rich to be my bfs, for some reasons. The issue is, What is there to lie about??? Don't have don't have lah, lie for what. Kenasia. I am getting angry writing this. Don't write liao. He's forcing all the Singlish out of me. haha

I previously kept an online diary at another site. I started writing because the above said scumbag caused me so much misery and I Was so stupid to cling on to the relationship for more than a year. Glad I walked away from it all. It ended with him falling in love with a silly young fat not ladylike at all girl working partime at Mos Burger. What a humiliation. She was the one who kept urging him to be with her. And he was so cheap and probably very flattered that some girl actually want him. So, they had a secret affair which I uncovered. I tried to convince him that I am definitely a better gf to him than that stupid fat pig. My plot was to get him back and dump him. Later, I got sick of it all, and gave him up for good. So, the two losers got together. One month later, he contacted me again. Asked me to patch up. I met up with him, just to see what exciting story there is.

He listed all the bad points of that girl. BAd dress sense, walks like a guy, got some moustache like stuff(whatever it's called), rough hands, too short, too selfish, no interest in her, no feelings for her, not attraction towards her.. :) Started telling me how good I am. And to prove that he wants to get back with me, he told her that he wanted to break up and avoided her. That pig plus a few other partimers (her girlfriends) all turned against him, and gave him a hard time at work. :) STill, I didn't get back with him. He sucks lah. Now, there are times, I recall some lies he told me and feel a shudder of fear. You will never understand. Just like JJ will never understand because nobody ever ill treats him this way before. Of cos, may this sort of pple perish from EARth ASAP,so that none of us would meet him. And I know I can't let him affect the rest of my life.

Oh no..I said i won't talk about him anymore.

It's 1.30am. I am alone at home with the dog. For the past 3 days I have beeen sleeping at 6plus in teh morning. Nocturnal liao. Jobless girl's lifestyle. Needta go get the new computers. No company.