would u remember?

Blogspot had problems and my entire entry was gone. Couldn't leave comments or post any entries last night. Luckily, I saved a fraction of what i had been writing then, though only a fraction.. So dumb of me not to save everything just before I click POST. Whatever's written, it's done yesterday.

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Earlier, I saw a guy who is the bf of one of the bloggers. He was walking with a girl who is probably his colleague. Now and then, I would bump into some bloggers and even their friends whom I recognise after seeing the pictures. It feels a little strange. You know that person, but you don't actually know that person, you get what I mean? *Shrug*

We know how small Singapore is.. Want to cheat? Have some sense not to go town together. (No, actually, please don't ever cheat on your partner and make the world a better place to live in. Pleaseee....) Your bf/gf might not be there, but their friends are.. now, with funny channels such as friendster and blogs, your partner's unwittingly got herself some private detectives or informers everywhere.

There were several occasions when I personally witnessed or learnt about my friends' partners cheating on them. I didn't tell my friends. Dunno lah.. Either way, it's bad. And they always choose to believe their bfs in the end, because it's easier to give their partners the benefit of the doubt so that they can still stay with their loved ones... Well... Anyway, I would want my friends to tell me if they know of my bf cheating on me.. So that I can stop wasting my youth and reduce my opportunity cost of being together with a scumbag.

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Now and then, male acquaintances asked me to go Zouk. Never go with them. Hmm.. I find myself too old for Zouk now. The crowd there is too young for my liking, which is such a pity, cos I enjoy dancing there... And.. I am starting to like sitting down for drinks and listening to music at places like Balaclava now. Hiakzz.. Actually, I haven't been in there yet. I think the term people would use for such an activity is "chilling out" or "go drinking". Chilling out sounds childish to me.

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I am the sort that like to stay out, and not bum around at home much. Everyday after work, I don't like to go home straight. I usually knock off at 6.30pm or 10pm. Don't get to meet JJ often. He has to study, has to enjoy his personal space, accompany his mother etc.. His workplace is so far away. His house is also very far away. Times when I knock off at 10pm, it's needless to say that I would have to be alone. There would not be surprises.

But I don't like to eat alone.. EVerytime after work, I would be so hungry for dinner or supper. Most of the times, I would just walk around a little and go home.. Don't want to eat alone. AFter work, I would love to go for a coffee and chat with someone or so.. Don't want to go home. :( My life is so uneventful now. Though, work is rather fun.. I want other fun too.. :(

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My birthday is really coming and I keep forgetting about it, which is good. I used to take my birthdays so seriously. It used to be an occasion when I would judge how important I am to individual friends from what they do or not do for my birthdays.

Numbed and jaded from the disappointments in recent years.

Sms,icq and msn 'happy birthday' to me is not appreciated. unless it comes from someone I hardly know.

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As I was saying, part of this entry is gone.. Don't want to retype.