try making me happy, will u

Someone offered to sponsor my hair rebonding for a belated birthday gift. Wow.. I asked him to reconsider it. Because my hair is quite long that it will take $200 to do the job. He should just buy hair serum for me instead. Cheaper, quite effective, little damage too.

Tempting.. I would like to dye my hair all black and rebond it.

I know I know.. rebonding is not appealing anymore. But it beats going around with a messy bunch of long hair which is 3/4 a blonde shade and 1/4 black from the roots. I'm sure I would look a lot better. And perhaps, like what those managers have been telling me.. when I look better, my sales will go up.

Right now.. I take all those stuff as crap. I refuse to put on more makeup or wear contact lens and I still go to work wearing old stuff from previous purchases.

Why why why? Why ask me to put on contact lens? I look very ugly now? I think I look nicer with my spectacles on. I love wearing them everyday.

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Work sucks. It's a shop where people will not buy unless you push, you get really aggressive, manipulate their minds etc.. Sometimes, I try to do that. It's really quite hilarious. I would b told that they just want to browse. I would still talk to them. Then, I would suggest they try. They would refuse. I ignore. Still go the shirts for them to try. And, they go try. Sometimes, they buy, sometimes they don't. Still, if they had not tried, the chance of them buying would be near zero. I just suck at this job. Need to look for alternatives.

Nutz.. At this stage, it is like this, cos there isn't much appealing stuff to sell now. New stocks have been promised.. but.. it's nearly mid April, they are still nowhere near in sight.

Valentino's ties (I think) will be launched in the shop next week. Was told that thousands of people have been invited. Eh..thousands?? Hope that will help me in my target. Well.. I hope Valentino has nice ties. Cos the DKNY ones suck in design -- for very junior executives and students, I think.

My horrible colleague that I once mentioned before is still as scary as ever. I don't talk about her anymore, cos she seem to try to be nicer to me.. but well.. i realise that it's still the same. When she's nice to me, she's actually doing something detrimental to my wellbeing in the company. E.g., she offered to give me a sale to credit under my name. Sounds good? No.. She took a wrong size and insisted that I packaged it and give to the customer. She insisted claiming that she knows better and since she is so senior and was literally pushing me to the counter.. I keyed in my ID for the sales. So the customer came back yesterday very angry. And since it was under my name, I was being blamed for being careless. So many people knew about it. aarghh.. I shall be careful.

As long as my sales is still not up to mark, I would be stuck at this level. Within a month, this colleague has proceeded to the next already. Ya.. why compare me and her, just because both of us are new together. She is 34 years old and has been working in this line for very long.. How can they benchmark me against her.

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Mother said that she would 'celebrate' my birthday with me this weekend. Said that reason she didn't celebrate with me on my birthday is cos "her God" told her that she cannot attend all birthday celebrations this year, else she will suffer from extreme bad luck.

All my other friends were making funny arrangements with me. Almost all my closer friends are still schooling. So, they are meeting up with me after exams.

A good guyfren said he wants to go get a skirt for me after his exams this week. haha..funny.. skirt..

My group of good old gfs rattled off a list of shopping malls, asked me which vouchers I want.

I know..for the past few years, my birthday has been this way. Cos it always falls during the exam period. For my uni, it falls exactly on exam day for the past few years.

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I need to be happier.