One moment, I would declare that I know perfectly what I want.

The next, I would be moaning about being totally lost.

So what the hell do I want to do? I seriously cannot take the super low pay now and very tempted to apply for a couple of jobs that offer attractive starting pay. Then again, if I go for a job just because it offers higher starting pay, I would fall into the trap of being too myopic.

One moment, I would tell myself -- business. Definitely business. That's the way to get rich fast. That's the way to attain freedom. That's what I enjoy doing, and have been wanting to do.

The next, I would be swayed by what everyone else says. Get experience first before you do ur own biz. U r not biz material. It's easier to work for others. It's more glamourous working for others.

What am I good at? I have come to a conclusion that I would make a very good teacher. AT least I am confident that I am good at teaching. I have even checked out the NIE website.

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I started work at 10am this morning and reached home at 1am.. We had a meeting to reflect on the 'valentino launch' tonight. The meeting started at 10.30pm and went on pass midnight. Madness. Feel like strangling the boss. Can't he just provide more employment benefits and at least compensate us for working waywayway overtime?

I want to admit something... I am jealous of my unpredicatble+scary colleague. Though she has a character problem. She's very good at handlig interpersonal relationships unlike me. She's also very creative. Gosh, she's really smart and creative, I must admit. Respect her for her incredible problem solving skills and at the same time jealous..wishing that I were more capable.