I have been sleeping 5-6 hours everyday for many many days.

Working continuously for 12 days without break. I was asked to go to work today, to substitute someone, but I refuse to go as it is supposed to be my official OFF day. Heck. I am not that interested in leaving an excellent impression to those above. I am a genuine person. I am unlike some others who like to put up shows. I am tired, and I admitted to them that I am too tired to go on for another day.

Went Sentosa. Went to the Delifrance by Siloso beach. Loved to eat there, feeling a little of the sun and watch the monorial pass by close to me now and then. No more monorials now though. Bought a frisbee yesterday to play with JJ today. But I was so so tired that my frisbee went in 'Uncatchable' directions most of the time. The hot sun sapped out my energy too. Been wanting to go Butterfly Park for years. So, we went Butterfly Park. hahahaa... In order to make his money's worth, JJ stared hard at every specimen. At the end of it, he concluded that butterflies and insects are just not a guy's thing. Went Orchid Gardens after that. I shall not elaborate on the quarrel we had on a rare precious day to spend quality time together..Have made up already.

Oh..last weekend, we watched a little of the penguins. Yesterday, watched the cheetahs and leopards on national geographic with JJ. What should I say? At last, there is a channel we both enjoy. He is so into soccer, F1 and all the angmo shows, while I like those brianless Chinese ones.

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Turnout for the launch of Valentino ties was laughable, despite rather nice ties. At least, they have gained an experience. I asked myself, Would I have done a better job if I were the marketing executive in the company? They have a couple of marketing executives, I think. But, they seem to usually be executing instructions from the above, rather than actively creating stuff. If I were in charge to plan and execute this event, would it be a lot more successful?

I realise that I am one who is often quick to point out the weakness, but not a feasible solution to try to improve the situation. Haven't i read a lot about new product launches and events? I am really quite inept at applying what I have learnt.

I am to write a report on the event. I would like to put in more effort and write an impressive one, but.. ah..no more energy. 45min to bedtime, see what I can churn out.

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My Unpredictable colleague has been as unpredictable and scary as usual. Though, it's not unpredictable that she is unpredictable anymore. haha... She bought me coffee the day before yesterday. But so what? That doesn't mean she can speak to me very harshly in front of everyone whenever she is in a bad mood.

I feeel.... that it really takes quite a bit of courage and effort to start and nurture a friendship now at my age and situation. To most people, I am really sincere and genuine. But my sincerity and "genuinity" often aren't quite recipocrated.

And I don't understand that while I am the one really genuine and good to R and A at work, R and A seem to prefer my scary colleague. This scary collleague of mine often backstabs R and A behind their backs to me. But yea, R and A still seem to like her a lot, more than they like me. Because her sales performance is usually twice of mine. Because she is all sweet and nice in front of them. Because she does a lot other things that make her appear to be very diligent and contributing a lot, when she complains about them to me. I want to be no part of this. It's ok.. I was told by my good friends that I can look quite unapproachable at times, maybe that's why people don't like me as much.