My grade for General Paper (GP) is C6. That was when I was 18 years old, which is almost 5 years ago.

But, every now and then, even till now, throughout these years, I feel stigmatised by that darn C6. I think you can get the picture. XXXX would ask me what i get for GP. When I said C6, they will go "Oh..." And that "Oh..." simply means "huh, so lousy? your english must be lousy."

FUMEFUMEFUME

Firstly, it was a one time incident that I obtained a mediocre grade for an English subject.

Then, people are assuming that my English standard stays C6 level for life, like now for instance.

And, please, whoever is reading this, don't judge my standard of English by what I write in my blog.

I'm not at A1 or A2 when it comes to English. But definitely a B3 at least. Even now.

When I was in school, I sometimes do the overall editing of my project reports. Why? Because, my english is better than the rest those in my respective groups.. And, certainly, one doesn't have to use cheem vocab or nonstop puns and other figurative words right?

My style --Simple. Comprehensive. Proper grammar. Apt and Heavy use of jargon when doing reports. Not those flamboyant style.

Anyway, my friends are usually shocked when I quoted C6 for GP. Because, I am not!!! But I am still suffering consequences for that one time failure.

Well, when someone asks for my GP grade now, I will say "C6. but I am a lot better than that."

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I haven't told my family that I would be starting work. A couple of friends have asked about it.. Getting sian of explaining to people. Singapore is so so so small.. that I can't do whatever I like with my life, without being affected by judgements and comments.

JJ's chipping in a little for me to buy clothes.

I wish I have a bf that doesn't look at attractive girls on the streets. I wish I have a bf who is oblivious to other girls. I wish I have a bf who pays more attention to me. I think I should pray instead of wish.