it's not easy.....

Let me SCREAM....

It's so tough..so stressful.. because it's totally not Me.

Today is the first day of work.

I slept less than 2 hours because I could't sleep that I got up to read old textbooks in the middle of the night, hoping it will put me to sleep.

So..when I don't have enough sleep, I tend to be very very clumsy with little concentration and agility.

My company deals with high end Men's fashion. MEn leh... How boring... and very tough too. I have to start from scratch, familiarise myself with the pants, shirts, ties, cufflinks, coats and what not. I was so so so clumsy handling the pants today. Fumbling with everything..Was told time and again, that every thing I do, I must look good doing it. I was told to put on contact lens and more make up. Eh? Give me grooming allowance, I would consider.

And I was told that my personal sales target per month for now... is .....

Make a guess....



>$20,000

gimme a shock. My job is not a sales coordinator or sales girl whatever.. But, ya, everyone in the company must learn to make sales. This company has so many outlets and different brands and my target is supposed to be one of the lowest.. can u imagine how much revenue they are bringing in every month...? Though..I wonder why leh.. Cos the workmanship of the pants isn't that fantastic. G2000 could beat them..

The shirts and ties look good. But very expensive lah. Staff discount won't help either.

Today.. I have to do all the things that I have never done before or had the courage to do. But ya.. I cannot be mediocre.. Tmr must buck up.

Where can I get female long sleeve collared shirts at $20 each huh? My clothes have always tend to be more colourful.. Now I have to clad in black, white etc.. So, I bascially only have two pairs of black pants and two suitable shirts... Okie, I will permutate these 4 pieces of clothing everyday for weeks.. Very poor... Oh.. and two pairs of suitable footwear. Gosh, I have never been out of clothes this much before.. Doubt i have much chance for all my casual girly clothing anymore..

Black silky shiny Pants from GG>>5 -- despite not wanting to wear a brand that is popular, I jsut couldn't resist their designs.. $73.. Find it expensive. Then anyhow bought a pair of lower heeled black sandals --cheapcheap from Charles and Keith after work today. The mules I wore were literally crushing the bones of toes, hurting my knees and back..

Not that keen in wearing contact lens, more makeup or a blazer.. cos they are not subsidising at all. Some companies do you know?????

I'm stressed lah.. It's 1am...

I just came back not long ago..After work, went buy shoes, then went MArina South for steamboat. Haven't been there for ages. Gosh. that place is so chaotic that I don't have the mood to eat.... Do you know that there are free shuttle buses from the individual steamboat operators? Hiakz..I toook the mini van.. It was a total thriller ride!! That uncle was making all the sharp turns and u turns, that everytime he made a turn, everyone in the van screamed and laughed.. haha.. thriller ride lah..


Oh.. that stupid popping butter from the steamboat bbq splat all over my shirt, face and arms.. My new shirt leh.. I hope the oil stains can be cleaned off... Else, I will only be left with one shirt.... one shirt leh..how can?

Any kind souls, wanna donate shirts to me? $$$ even better. :p

No time to sleep still go eat steamboat, play and blog... Yea.I am this ill-disciplined since always..

Now..tmr I don't want to receive "you are not good," words and stares.

I'm going to learn so much about men's corporate wear.. Funny.. haha
I have a report to write before I sleep...I want to zzZZZzzz.. 2 days sleep a total of only 8 hours. :( Grouchy girl when robbed of sleep.

Success doesn't come, unless with substantial trade off... I must pull up my socks tmr. Not to be looked down upon...