if u love me, u shouldn't have gone after me.

if u love me, u shouldn't tell me that i mean the universe to u.

if u love me, u shouldn't trick me into becoming your gf.

if u love me, u should have warned me of what i have to suffer being your gf.

if u love me, u should try to lessen my suffering all this while and now.

we are worlds apart, why did we get together?

u dun love me as much as i love u.

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i can't respect her.

i can't respect her when she thinks she's very pretty because a lot of guys give her attention.

i can't respect her because she has to be involved with another married man with wife and kids, for years.

i can't respect her because she speaks ill of me, and finds so many faults with me.

i can't respect her because she wants both another woman's husband and her son to accompany her as much as possible.

I can't respect her because she is one huge obstacle to me seeing more of her damn son.

I can't meet more of my bf because of her. What the fuck.

I wish she would vanish soon. soon. soon.

I hate her so much. I tried to be nice... but it has been too much.

I want to get out of the relationship.. but I can't bear to give up the 5 months together. I will be so devastated, falling into an abyss of dispair everyday. i would fear loneliness and make sure there will be someone with me every single day, at all times, till I doze off in fatigue.. I put in so much into this relationship.. i don't want to waste it all.. and i hate changing bfs..

God would be mad at me for hating the mother. god would be mad at me for not forgiving her sins against me.. it's beyond my own means to love or respect such a woman. I just want to run away from her and have as little to do with her as possible. EScapism.. not working.