i can't tarhan her anymore

I went to the gym today. I paid to go the gym at a community center near my friend's house, so that I can get to meet her. Seldom meet her, very happy to see this old mate of mine.

What's the big deal with paying 2 bucks to CC gym, u might wonder? Cos there's a gym and pool at my house that I hardly utilise, but i went all the way to her place to do it. Bah, I'm such a showoff hor? Make myself sound so wei3 da4..

I was such a ... ermm... I can't call myself a bimbo, cos I am not very pretty or brainless... I was such a .. hmm can't think of a term but anyway, I was behaving like I cannot run, cannot do crunches, cannot lift anything heavy etc..Ya, and I am so gonna get an outbreak on my face for leaving my make up on during the workout. I just don't feel comfortable with a bare face.

yea.. and so my friend screamed at me, " You were an athlete leh" Well, not anymore. But, ya, I know I am not trying hard enough and just being plain gu2 niang1 <--- Hokkien term for being very demure, dainty, girly, lalala..

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After that, I went to eat prata.. Prata leh! I merely jogged for say 10 minutes and walked the rest of the time and I went to eat prata. And...my pot is now boiling with my supper. My appetite is always enormous after any little exercise.

So, I chatted with my dear friend. There's just so much things I want to talk to her about. I tried to when we were on the treadmill, but hahahaa, cannot catch breath..

And we came to the usual topic of our common fren --- Miss-she's-the-center-of-the-Universe. She's the one with the looks. She's a head turner. She's the one lotsa guys fight over. She's interested in many many guys. She's always whining about her problems. She doesn't want to listen to her friends. Her problems are real problems but her friends' problems are not real problems. Her life is very interesting because all guys and girls are total sychophants to her. Ohh..I just learnt today that she would make out with her boyfriend in front of her single female friends. Thank God, I didn't get to witness that..

She's the one I mentioned in my previous entry would keep whining about how she feel bad about not getting a job when she is still graduating and I am the one who's got the serious problem. You can't imagine how incessant her whines can go.. I am a girl, not a guy.. GEt one of those admirers to listen to you, not me. I have provided enough practical advice and help. That's it. Ermm..i can go on about how she has contributed NEGATively to my life. But, I feel guilty complaining about her. Cos, there were positive contributions as well.. I would say, the positive parts just cannot make up for the negative parts...

My friend noted that I always seem very apologetic each time I complain about this Miss pretty-but lousy friend. Ya I do.. I am not the only one who drifted away from her, who don't want to have anything to do with her.. She found many of her friends drifting away from her and lament about how no real friendships exist as we get older. That's cos nobody can stand her, that's why. Only her admirers can stand her lah. Another thing, boyfriends and other guyfrens of ours are often attracted to her looks. Wow, she's so successful huh? Her life is so colourful and meaningful huh? Guys who don't go gaga over her would really impress me. But who cares about impressing me. Impressing her instead is more important huh..Kenasai..

But, it's really difficult drifting away from her... She's a friend of many years. What can I do when she smses me, messages me and asks me to go out? How many times can I refuse? My other friends have succeeded in drifting away from her... I am wondering if I should..

Okie..I wanted to blog about other stuff... Friendship established through blogs? The stark existence of female jealousy? Aiyah..I should just go take my supper..

By the way.. everyday, I think of all sorts of nonsense..So today, I smsed JJ, "I am going to cancel all my interviews for this week. I have decided I want to be a salesgirl. Would you mind having a salesgirl as your girlfriend?"

He said the usual don't be silly, I won't look down on you. because in my eyes, you are the sophisticated one.

sophisticated? hiakzz.. lack of vocab or what? of cos, I secretly hope it's true and not just something to placate me.