A new lifetime goal

I just met up an old friend. She's never been attached before and has plans to work and travel.

Suddenly, I am really disillusioned with relationships. My friends all think that my first boyfriend was perfect for me. Unfortunately, the clock cannot be wound back and everything's changed now. It cannot be that there will only be one such guy in the entire world right? There must be more than one out there, who would love me truly and dearly, that I too would love to cherish.

Where did I meet my current boyfriend? Answer -- Friendster. Is he a crook? No, he isn't. Not all people you know from irc/icq/friendster are crooks or abnormal beings of the society. But, I would say that some of them have problems socialising in real life, that's why they turn to such channels to 'make friends'. Friends often like to dismiss knowing people from the opposite gender through such channels as "loserfied". Whatever.

Wasn't prepared to get attached within 4 months from the previous relationship, but I did.

During the JC gathering, one guy asked if I am too used to having a bf and that I cannot stay single. I feel like giving him a tight slap, but well...we don't actually tell ourselves that we have to stay at least a certain period of time before getting attached again right, just to prove to others that we don't go in and out of relationships, and cannot do without a lover. No! Some people just come into your life out of the blue. Chemistry happens randomly..So happen that JJ appeared 3 months after my last break up. Why should I date him for at least a year before I get together with him, so that I won't be seen as getting attached again too fast. Malicious tongues. Let them wag all they want.

I would like a partner that really thinks well of me. Thinks I am a great girl, sees the good in me, and further brings out the good in me. Not one that criticises me all the time, often choosing to think the worse of me.

Oh..I would also like to have friends who are more GENUINE.

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By the way, my friend and I were browsing through some of the man's magazines earlier. I commented that I wished they would stop publishing scantily clad and boobsy girls on male magazines. A typical female magazines would be filled with images of fashion and make up. A typical male magazine would be girls wearing almost nothing page after page. Now, what is wrong with guys? Oh, they are just born like that, you would say. When girls go for rich guys, they are termed as materialistic and all so bad with no character. But, guys are so attracted to girls with hot bods all the time. Girls don't go drool over other guys with hot bods right, at least most don't. Having said this, I feel like staying single for life. One of my lifetime goals will be to get guys to drool over me, but never ever will they be able to have any bit of me.