14 Jan 2005

I write in my blogs without considering that my friends might read them! Hmm.. I just deleted a few of my previous posts. Those filled with vehemence that I got vulgar.

I'm going Sentosa with JJ this Saturday. Wanna eat at the Delifrance by the beach. :) Hopefully it' s not under huge construction

Making all big breasted girls my foes from now on. No. Only those big-breasted girls who are slim and attractive will be my foes. The rest - I am not envious.

Not going to wear bikini lah.. Will just don on my vintage Zara tube, a piece that guys don't know how to appreciate. But heck, i like it. No good figure, must hide my body behind the cloth..

I started having an affinity for Sentosa's beach after my break up with my previous bf. My good girlfriend and I hit the beaches on weekends. I felt so free, so free... Not bounded by a silly relationship and finally have the luxury of time to spend quality time with friends that matter. I felt so good being single and free. Sometimes, trying to immerse myself in that state by revisiting my emotions then. Been to Sentosa countless times, never felt that way before.

But this time round, I am going there, attached, with a bf. I will chop him into pieces if I catch him looking at other girls. Nah, I will just pretend to drool at other guys, even better. Though, I am just not interested in any other guys. Why why why? Why issit that when most girls are in relationships, they have eyes only for their boyfriends, and yet guys will continue checking out other girls? I don't mean "taking real actions". I am referring to the INTEREST. As in, I would be oblivious to all the goodlooking or eligible guys around, and only interested in the apple of my eye. Why issit that guys can't? I don't think u all get what I mean. Not putting across my point clearly.. I shall go sleep.

I know I have the tendency to dwell in thoughts that are self-defeating. I cannot go on thinking this way, cos I would be the one suffering possible losses. Why is my brains wired this way? :(

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By the way, my little cousin said that he's in the sports class in his primary school. He said that their classes are divided into sports, arts, music etc.. Hmm.. So nice!!!! I recall myself in my primary school days. I was talented in all three areas. I have a lot of medals and trophies from track and field competitions -sports. I could play all a lot of different sports then. I won some art and craft competitions too. Then, I was in choir and ensemble, because I was good, so chosen. Oh, I was pretty brainy too...

What happen to me now?? I want to quote the chinese proverb that goes one who seems promising when young, may not be that great when she grows up. ERmm..I cannot type chinese here, so *shrug** It describes me very well loh.

Sleepysleepy...

Love my rosy pink walls.. :)