10 Jan 2005

My room's gonna be painted Pink tomorrow. I don't think it's a good idea, since there is already a whole lot of pink and red in my room.

Recently, I develop a liking for shades of blue. Instead of being shades of red, I have been getting navy blue cardigan, navy blue blouse and baby blue stuff..

Love red since young. All my clothes were red when I was young. Serious. All my clothes (exceot school uniform lah) all the way until I was 11 years old. Initially, it was because I think adults like to see children wearing red, so I only wore red. Then I thought Red brings me luck.

My other room is all different shades of purple and white. So unoriginal huh? Girls nowadays go for a lot of pink and purple.

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Secretly wish to be a "princess" to someone. But I am not a princess to anyone.. :(

An old male fren bought me a metallic photoframe with the word "princess" written on it, a few years back. ( if u r reading this, do u remember? *winkz*) Of course, he doesn't regard me as his princess. I am just a friend that is being treated like a friend.

Coincidentally, I found out that the abbreviation of my name means "princess of God". :) I guess this would suffice...

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I used to be strongly against girls sitting aside waiting for their guys to play arcade, soccer or billiard. I would think the guy is selfish and the girl stupid.

I have instead been watching JJ while he plays billiard. (Travel all the way down to the West and then back alone to watch him today.) Everytime he goes, I am there to watch him, which is quite often. And, I am either the one who Volunteer to go and would smile happily if he asks me to go. I will bring a magazine or book along though. Honestly, I don't mind just watching/ reading for hours and I actually enjoy it. He feels happy that I am around watching him too. Used to hate billiard, I have recently asked him to teach me. Ever tried pool only once in my entire life. My lessons haven't started.

I used to dislike guys who like to watch soccer. So stupid of guys to only watch and not play the sport. It simply bores me too. JJ is one such guy who loves to watch soccer but doesn't play the sport. He once said that the guy would be very happy if his gf would sit with him to watch soccer matches together.

Actually, I think I have better things to do, such as read a book or magazine. But well, it's in my plans to try to watch a soccer match with him one day.

I also dislike guys who collects toys. What a stupid money wasting hobby!!!! Unfortunately, JJ is one of these guys -Spawn. Lots and lots of Spawn stuff in his house collecting dust. He goes Clarke Quay so often to check them out. I declare that I would never buy him any Spawn toy.. Come to think of it, before getting together, he said that he would stop collecting if I don't like it. Now I remember. How come he still collects now? Hmm.. Cos I am already his girlfren now and he doesn't have to 'pretend' anymore? Tmr, I shall complain about this to him.. Well, anyway, I am thinking that I would buy him a Spawn toy one day as a surprise.. :)

Guys like billiard is akin to girls liking shopping? Even when he's bored with shopping, he would still accompany me.

Guys like to watch soccer is akin to girls liking to watch silly movies such as "the cinderella story". Even though he isn't interested in such movies, he would still watch with me.

Guys like to collect useless toys. Girls like to collect silly useless soft toys too. For this, hmm..I don't collect anything. I don't buy soft toys anymore. Don't want to waste money and leave them on the mantel pieces to collect dust. Still, it's ok.. I know if I were to start collecting, he won't object to it too..

Oh..and comics!!! Lotsa guys like to read them. I find it a waste of money too. And JJ regularly buys them..! But well, I guess it's just like girls buying female magazines to read.

Suddenly, I feel that guys are often more accomodating to girls.

When I first know JJ, I told him that he's totally not suitable for me. Cos I would not tolerate my bf to play billiard often, watch soccer often, waste money on toys and comics. He also had 5 ex gfs, not including the unofficial ones. He is also good looking. I dun like to have a goodlooking guy as my bf. Knowing myself, I would so jealous of his numerous past girls and feel insecure that dunno which bitch will be attracted to his good looks n go seduce him. Oh, he was also quite quiet and boring and we didn't have much to say to each other about. And he had a 'rival' then too.

During those days, he would write on his friendster profile or msn nick that he's hopeless and all. Each time I meet up with him, he would fear that it's the last time I would ever agree to meet him out again. I was to make a decision whether to be with JJ or the other guy. At first, JJ was totally out. Then it became a tough decision to make. Towards my self-imposed deadline to make a choice between the two, it became clear that I would choose JJ. JJ was totally surprised that I chose him and the other guy was totally totally shocked that I didn't choose him.

Choosing JJ was initially totally based on my feelings. I decided to heck care about all the stuff I dislike about him. All I know was that there was increasing chemistry. Didn't care if it would last long. Didn't care if he were good hubby material.

Thank God I made the right choice. IT's besides the point whether JJ makes a good bf and hubby. It would have been bad if I choose the other guy!! He is very nice lah. But, I prefer one from similar education background, smarter than me, more capable than me.. I realised I could not look up to or respect him at all. Actually, I also prefer the guy to be a lot taller and bigger size than me. JJ would worry that I regret my choice, but I never ever did! Told JJ how glad I was that he came into my life, else I would have made a silly mistake to be with that other guy.