My happening community service

By the way... Who started coining the term "happening" to describe a person "having a lot of life" or that a lot of not so mundane events took place..

My community service finally came to an end yesterday. Had mixed feelings. I started criticising the organisation AFUA (Arts for Us All) at the start. But at the end of it, I had quite a bit of compliments to pay.

Well, despite a lack of strong leadership, organisation, implementation and direction, they did achieve their objectives. They really brought Arts, in terms of performing Arts to the streets of Orchard Road. I could see so many people enjoying all the music, dance and other performances. Besides, another of their objective to give the talents in Singapore a chance to showcase their talents was really successful. Hey! There are really quite a lot of budding young musicians here among us. They just didn't have the chances others in other countries have. Now, I respect AFUA. :)

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Why happening? Ha..Just little things.. Sigh, I realised I am really quite lazy to blog details..

Throughout the event, when I watch the performers, I wish I could sing! I wish I could play the saxophone better! I wish I can sing and play the guitar! I wish I wish.. I played the saxophone back in Secondary school. Was in the symphonic band. I need practice again before I can perform in public of course. Well, as for singing, they were all singing english songs. I sing chinese songs.

The thing about singaporeans singing english songs is that, there isn't a distinct flavour to it. We listen to the foreigners sing, and we start singing the accent and way they do. Not original if you get what I mean. Nothing special. If you sound like the angmohs, you are percieved to be good. To me, these people are just actually quite plain and normal. For me, if I sing english songs, I am going to sound average and plain etcetc.. So, why throw my face?

I had a bursting urge in me to go take the mike and sing, get one of the guys to play the guitar. Oh, anyone can go up to the perform besides the scheduled bands. There were audience who went up to perform, and they were good of course. I was asked if I wanted to sing, dance or anything. I wanted to tell them, actually i can played the saxophone, actually my singing is ok. Some of those that went up to perform spontaneously weren't good..I mean, even though I am not that good myself, I am better than them.. I feel bad saying this. It's another of my think-I-am better-than-others attitude again. Bad girl... Ya know, I even asked JJ, "Do I sing better than them?" (them referring to some of them in particular, not all of them of course) He said Yes..Haha, could he have said No?

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Yesterday, I went into their HQ -- a red bus at Youth Park near Cineleisure. The red bus is like a place, not a bus. There were a few of the AFUA guys there. First thing he said, "Have you eaten?" Then asked, "Why are you always smiling?" Ok, I didn't know that I always smile. Shrug. I just replied, "A lot of people say that you don't smile." And a resounding agreement followed from the rest in the bus. One asked him if he ever smiles. Hahaha.. The rest of the time, he wasn't that serious and solemn anymore for once. Those guys were talking before I came, stuff irrelevant to me. I wasn't sitting with them. But, every now and then, he will talk about me, talk to me etc.. He's the only one there who calls me by my christian name in full while the rest calls me the abbreviated version of my name. I guess, I was just kinda honoured and pleased that he gives me quite a bit of attention. But hey, I am not planning to cheat on JJ, ya?

Oh, he asked me a few times whether I want to join AFUA. In my mind, it was YesYesYes, in fact I have been wondering if I would be asked right at the start. But I said stuff like, "Ermm..I think I am overaged" etcetc.. Almost all of them are 20years old and below. He asked me a few times, but I never answered him directly. Another guy added that, "Join lah! He's(referring to the president I was talking about) handsome." Hahahaha.. So????

Anyway, I was bored..so I went Heeren to shop by myself and left them.

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I am just mentioning a few stuff that happened throughout this event. Haha.. Yesterday night, I was counting the donations in the red bus, along with many others. One of the volunteer's younger sister came in. She's 12 years old. She came in exclaiming aloud," XXXXX, got love message!" I was like.. huh??? What joke is she going to play on me? She just kept repeating to everyone said that I have a secret admirer etc and asked me to go out with her. So, after sometime, I just went out with her and asked her not to shout anymore..

It came from the weirdest person.

She said that one of the soundsystem guys said that he wants to get to know me better etcetc..She passed me his number and that I am supposed to contact him. Errmmm..I didn't. Sigh, I don't know what to do also. I don't want to be mean, but I don't want trouble. *shrug** Anyway, after that i went to get my bag and left. After all her 'promotions' in the bus, I am too embarrassed to stay on.

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All right, one last guy.. Hahaha..this guy that guy..Ok, sometimes I am just puzzled at some attention I get, I guess. I am no babe! My complexion sucks.

Oh..There was another guy EEP. Shan't elaborate. But, I was shocked and paiseh, when he gave me a stalk of red rose at the place when I was doing my community service in orchard road. He wanted to eat dinner with me, or supper, and sent me home. But, I said I can't.

Yesterday, he came again. Brought me food he bought from takashimaya, just when I was telling everyone that I am famished. We never talked much.

I can just recall the number of guys that tried so hard to convince me how much they love me and that their love for me will continue forever, such that even after I reject them, they will still continue holding a torch for me. Yes, they kept trying to convince me that it will take very long for them to get over me, and that I will always be the most special to them.. and all the SHIT!!!!!!!!!!! I hate it, absolutely abhor guys who try to convince me this. It's better that they don't try to say anything at all. Obviously it will not hold true. After a while, I will hear of them getting a new girlfriend almost too soon and all. Rubbish. Rubbish.What a lot of rubbish some guys try to make me believe. In this era, most guys are practical, they simply move on to the next girl when one doesn't work.

I don't know about EEP. Perhaps, he too has some other crushes. But, I was surprised that after telling him off once sometime ago, he still can be bothered to be nice to me now. Yea, I was irritated with him thinking too highly of himself suggesting that he's too good for me. I told him that he know nuts about chasing girls. Haha..I half expected him to be more practical and totally give up on me. Anyway, he should.

I only meet him for the first time recently when he came to get things from me. He smed me amongst some others is -- "You are indeed sweet and cute". hahah...huh? what did I do? but he didn't say that i am pretty, which i am not, cos my complexion is in horrid condition.

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Erps..blogged so much about this guy that guy... ermm...well, I admit that I do feel flattered when there are guys who give me attention like this. But, it also spells trouble for me. Because at the end of the day, I cannot return in kind anything, and I won't recipocrate any feelings.