Learning about myself

I have been doing my community service this past week, especially the recent weekend.I have been going Orchard almost everyday....

This event is called ORchard Jam. Busking sessions along Orchard Road. I was stationed at Heeren, near Marche. I was the 'Site Manager' for that location, meaning that I will be coordinating and managing the events,people and everything else at that location.

I have been wondering..What the hell am I good at? What are my talents and abilities if there are any at all. I am not a leader. I am not a worker as well. My life's such a haze.

Anyway, through these events, I developed more people skills and discover that I have improved a lot at managing situations etc.. Hmm..How to say? I have the ability to run a site smoothly and successfully, not all by myself of course.

I was typing one example earlier to illustrate..Hee..But too lazy to type, too long. Forget it. I am just happy to discover more abilities I have acquired. At the age of 22, I am finally much more capable than I ever was.

Suyin gave me a book -The Purpose Driven Life by Rich WArren. It's one of those Christian Best sellers. I had the book for months, and recently picked it up to read. Hey, it's quite well written.

Part of it wrote - EAch of us was uniquely designed by God with talents, gifts, skills and abilities. The way you're "wired" is not by accident. Like a proud parent, God especially enjoys watching you use the talents and abilities he has given you. God intentiaionally gifted us differently for his enjoyment.. He has shaped each person in turn, no whe watches everything we do.

You don't bring glory or pleasure to God by hiding your abilities or trying to be someone else. (But then, I don't even know who I actually am. I do I know when I am trying to be someone else?) You only bring him enjoyment by being you. Anytime you reject any part of youself (Is this trying to say that I should stop feeling irritated by my flat chest and acne prone face?), you are rejecting God's wisdom and sovereignty in creating you.

God says,"You have no right to aruge with your Creator. You are merely a claypot shaped by a potter. The clay doesn't ask,'Why did you make me this way?'"