I want a...

Corset!

This is not taken from any porn websites, in any case you are wondering.

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Had a fight with JJ on Friday night. "Fight". We weren't shouting or anything. Just super pissed with each other. I brought up the topic that I wish he would show more appreciation of me when we are together. I said that he's lavish with criticisms and a scrooge with compliments and niceties. He, as usual just jump to his own defense. He thinks that I am being overly critical of him, finding a lot of problems with him. (Maybe, I am.)

Why try to defend himself, when he knows very well that he has this problem, which he later admitted too. EVeryone, not just girls, like to know that they are being appreciated and that their partners think well of them. And it didn't look like it will end since none wants to give in, so he decided to leave the argument that way and leave. NEver ever wage cold wars with me. Never leave an argument like this. After he left, the argument was continued over sms. I hate sms. He dunno how to call me issit?

He should know that it is very easy to end this argument. Just put away his pride, say that he understand that he's wrong in a more gentle tone, say sorry and that he will try to change, but give him some time. Top that up with a kiss. That's it!! But, it's just so difficult to put away his pride. Stupid only child attitude wants the entire world, still finding it hard to give in to others.

And then, I childishly said that I want to break up because I am not getting what I want. I was just being plain spiteful. In the end, I called him the next day(Saturday). Relieved to hear him speaking in a milder tone. Obviously, I hope we work out, and wouldn't want to end the relationship. Sure I am unhappy, but I still hope he can continue to bring me happiness. Really hope that he will stop being so unkind with his words.

Quote from him: Obviously the SKII miracle water didn't work on you, because your face is still like that.
I knew he will say that, so I didn't want to let him know that I have this product. Too bad, I eventually told him, he saw the bottle, and then said this so unkindly. Aaarghh..As if I am not upset about my face already. I have very low self esteem already, it doesn't help the way he's talking about my face. He claims he is just concerned and trying to help. AArrghh..I rahter he shut his mouth.

Okiee.. nonono..I needta change focus. I said that I would be more tolerant and patient waiting for him to change.

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We met up later that day. (which is yesterday) Took some photos of the X'mas decor at ORchard Road, just like a whole lot of Singaporeans did. The photos didn't look good. Spent the rest of the night shopping for clothes for him. I have been looking out for the kind of pants he like, shirts for him to wear to work etc. He said that I looked more disappointed that him that he didn't buy anything after all the shopping.

In the end, we revisited PRoject Shop. He said he's a sucker for the stuff there. He tried on a dark blue draw string pants and a black top that I got for him. WAhaha.. looked so good! Because I said that he looks good in that black top, he bought both of them --$140. Xin1 Tong4

Later on, I said I don't want to eat at Swensen's to save his money. Not going CoffeeBean either. And that he didn't have to send me home, or he would have to take a $15 cab home later on. Time to be more sensible.

I am so so into self development that I want better things for my bf. JJ's quite a good looker, but he's got so few clothes with very limited styles. ME so eager to dress him up. Well, I am sure he will be happy and we were both very happy at the end of the day. He said,"Let's not quarrel anymore." I hope so!

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CK on sale..50% off. which means the black top I bought for JJ costs only 70 bucks now. Sianz.. Lowering its brand equity and chasing away customers like me. haha..

And bubble tea is coming back.. JJ's been saying that I am drinking an 'out of fashion' drink. I don't care! Especially like the Happy Cup branch at Orchard Emerald. I have influenced so many pple to go there and drink. Anyway, it's finally coming back again. Not in as much force as the previous, but as long as it's enough for the vendors to stay in business to ensure my supply of bubble tea!